Christina Chung

T-shirts I ordered from the States have arrived!

As I plough through the neatly stacked shirts, I found something that shouldn’t have been there – I found joy. I didn’t know I would find her there, but surely I did. Who would have thought that she would be hiding amongst my girl-sized tops? She emerged surprisingly when I held up one of my new buys.

I was apprehensive at first. The last time I ordered shirts from this website – early last year - I was actually contemplating between a guys large and extra large! I didn’t even dare to consider the girly sizes, they just look way too puny… I doubt it would be able to cover half of me. But now, I proudly hold up my large GIRLY t-shirt! I might still be wearing an L but the progress from guys L to girls L is another significant milestone on this journey.

I still remember the times I have to embarrassingly loiter in the men’s section in the department stores looking for stuff that would fit me. Many people who found out would just brand me as a ‘tomboy’ who likes to wear men’s clothes, but in reality, I don’t really have a choice. Which girl would love to be called ‘ah boy’ when you get in the queue buying lunch or be called a ‘kor kor’ when you play with a kid or get stared at when you step into the female toilet? Certainly not I. For an extended period of time I might have tried to psyche myself into thinking that it’s alright – that it’s who I am inside that’s important. But it’s not when who I am outside affects who I am inside.

Well, those days are over for now. In the journey to a healthier life, I got in touch with my feminine being. Just like how I found joy in my parcel of clothes! Who would have thought that they would be there?

But you know what, you’ll never know what you’ll find until you search.

You might be in for a pleasant surprise.